Good day to smile.Sunday, May 13, 2012 / 12:43 AM
This weekend has put me in a rather good mood. Which also means poor productivity... I'll say this once and say it again, self-loathing is the best mood for productivity. I didn't study/do hw at all this weekend. Which I will probably regret as I have AP tests still this coming week, and finals... and have projects due. Yes, you know it. (: that means no 4.71 for this semester.... Boooo.
On the bright side though. I got to watch half an episode of Running Man (first time in a long time, or maybe it just felt like a long time cause last week literally felt like one really long day of school hell). Yesterday felt like a really long day of happy... to make up for it. Not necessarily happy even per say, just relief and a breath of air. Whew. Today I went shopping with my sis and bought $250 bucks worth of stuff. Like I said, THERAPEUTIC SHOPPING. The best.
I started off today feeling terribly lonely and terribly depressed that everyone was freaking depressed all the time.... But then felt better as the day went on. It was chill and I realized I don't have to worry about everyone else's depressed lives all the time.
Yup. I'm getting progressively more un-nice. Yeah. Well. Fuck it. Cause I'm gonna be happy if I feel like it. Not gonna let anyone stop me.
IRIS: Candy Kiss.Friday, May 11, 2012 / 11:16 PM
Omg. To think real people like this exist. Lee Byung Hun did this before he was in dramas... and for real life too... That man is just a piece of art in every single way. Agh. I want a kdrama or a fairytale too. Haha.
Everything :).Wednesday, May 9, 2012 / 9:45 PM
No more my grades are giving me heart attack posts.Tuesday, May 8, 2012 / 11:26 PM
I'm still traumatized by "Rei's love life is all over the place". ... What does that even mean. LOL. I feel really sad. I'm not gonna lie. But then again, it makes sense. Cause I can talk to every single freaking person, play the game, be funny, be interesting. ETC. ETC. But not you. Oh no, not you. Yups. Pathetic.
And the fact that you become such a big part of my everyday thoughts... AGAIN. PATHETIC.
Ahem. Well then. I've recently changed favorite person to text again! Cause freaking Sunny never texts me anymore. Can't ask him for love advice... LOL. WHY YOU SO BUSY ALL THE TIME.
Anyhow... Again, this isn't really a real blogpost. I promise to blog some more after these next two weeks are over. I can barely think. (Oh I promised not to talk about grades but... I'M MISSING TWO ASSIGNMENTS IN AP BIO. WHAT THE... BALLS.)
AHHHHH. BALLSACS.Saturday, May 5, 2012 / 9:27 PM
So stressed. I wanna cry. ): I just wanna eat and watch Running Man. I'd rather go running everyday than have to worry about school anymore......... So stressed. JFOIDJSFOS. Stress -> Eating food -> Fat -> Sad/Angry/Self-loathing -> Stress... IT'S THE VICIOUS CYCLE. JFOIDSOFSD. /rant.
Okay. I'm done.
PS: No one stress me out this week. I'll probably get my period by the middle of this week even though it's not time yet... It's cause I'm gonna be too stressed. And I'm betting on a mental/emotional breakdown this week... YUPS. :) Everyone be nice to me.
Inevitable stress is kicking in.Friday, May 4, 2012 / 11:12 PM
Plus, AP Tests. As a matter of a fact, I don't even know why I'm taking AP Bio and AP Environ Sci test... Cause frankly they won't matter in my major. But since the money has been spent, I need to fucking do well. Shit. Not to mention finals are all earlier, if I had just one more weekend, the 19th, everything would be fine, but I don't got that. I got this week and next week... Oh wait, I don't got no next week cause my whole day from freaking 9 am to 5 pm is "booked" for some stupid retarded graduation where I don't even know anyone. Damn. Fuck. Bitch. Shit.
Ugh. I hate not having control of my life. As in... I think I have 2 weeks, but I actually have 1... And every single time I was gonna do something important this week... like run, you had something for me to do. I'm so annoyed. Shit.
AGHHH. I'M SO FUCKING SCREWED. JFODISJFO. NO TIME TO DO APES FINAL. NO TIME TO DO CHINESE FINAL. NO TIME TO FINISH BIOTECH BOOK FOR FINAL. NO TIME TO FINISH CATCHER IN THE RYE FOR MY FINAL PAPER. FJOSIJFOSDOFJDSOFJIDSJFOJFODSIJFOSDJFOIDJSFODJSFOSJFODIFJOSFIJODFJOSDIJFODJFISDOFJSIOFDIJSOJFDIFOSJDOF. JFOSIGOS AGH. SO FUCKED. SO FUCKED. NO TIME TO FINISH APES BOOK OR AP BIO BOOK BY THE END OF THIS WEEKEND. FJOSDIFJOS AGHHH. NO TIME TO DO ADDITIONAL STUDYING WITH AP BOOKS THAT I'M TOO POOR TO BUY... AGH. FJSODIJFOSD. NO TIME TO DO BIOTECH PROJECT THAT IS DUE THIS TUESDAY AND I HAVE A RETARDED PARTNER THAT DOESN'T DO SHIT FOR. JFOSIDJF. AGHHH. SO STRESSED. CAN'T. HANDLE.
Ugh. And my stomach's been hurting like crazy. All that fucking yogurt is gonna make me die. Not even kidding. Ugh. I just wanna go running with my buds. I don't wanna do school or family shit anymore. AGH.
EDIT: Oh, and remembered. NO FUCKING TIME TO DO MY FREAKING MATH FERP. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUH. SCREWED FOR LIFE.
Park Han Byul.Wednesday, May 2, 2012 / 9:06 PM
I may be delusional. But that's only because I really, really, really just wanna be loved.